Doubting Thomas

 Cameron and the kids were all sleeping and had been for some time.

I continually tried closing my eyes and just could not fall asleep. 1am, 2am...the worry just continued

to grow in me. The thoughts of what I could do swarmed through my head. The conclusion...well, I clearly fell asleep before the conclusion

However, this morning I woke up with the same intense feeling. The room was still dark and as I was laying there , again my head was so quickly flooded with thoughts, questions and evrything in between.

 

The FEAR of knowing that money is due and we don't have it.

The SORROW that our children are back in their orphanage and Im not sure when we will get to them

The ANGER at myself for not planning better and being more prepared

The GUILT for not trying harder

 

I simply gave in to the reality that this is too big for me.

The financial need is too great and the timing is growing shorter

I could not help but laying there in that dark room feeling like I had

FAILED my children.

I have never felt like that throughout this whole process, when its been hard

when it just felt like it wasn't going to happen. I just continued seeing hope and promise

This morning was SO different.

I allowed my fear to cloud my faith!

 

The conclusion swept over me.

Of course in song ( thats how I roll)

My heart was flooded with these lyrics

"Oh Praise The Lord our Mighty Warrior, Praise the Lord the Glorious One

By His hand we stand in VICTORY by His name we've overcome"

 

For this doubting Thomas, that is what I needed to hear. I needed to be reminded

that this is NOT my battle. THe victory is HIS. He is fighting for these

children, HIS children! He has BEEN fighting for them!

How foolish to think He would stop now.

 

I am still 100% clueless as to how we will get the funding needed to bring them home.

I am, however, 100% certain that in His time we will

I know that He has called us to trust and walk by faith.

I know that to most it seems impossible.

 

That is why this is not about the possible. Its about making His name known through the impossible!

That is where we see His mighty hand! He has already moved mountains for Chloe and Eli and we trust He is faithful.

 

The need right now.

$5707

that is what our family needs in order to submit our case to Embassy, gain visas and passports for the children.

We are stopped at this point and our lawyer is not moving forward on processing this until he has the money in hand. We fully understand this and were not expecting to reach this point so quickly. After we are submitted to Embassy we receive a TRAVEL DATE to bring our babies home! Thats how close we are...

 

Please join us in BOLDLY praying that God would call people to join this journey with us financially to bring Chloe and Eli HOME. Thank you all in advance for your prayers and support of our family.