Longing to Hold You

 

 

 

This week has been very difficult for me

My heart has simply ached to feel the weight of these babies in my arms

I have children sitting in an orphanage in the Democratic Republic of Congo

Let that sink in

I have TWO CHILDREN...

REAL CHILDREN

sitting in an ORPHANAGE in one of the top ten most dangerous cities in the WORLD

 

Every day that I wake up is one day closer to bringing them home

It is just so difficult. It is hard to go to sleep at night in my warm bed

after my warm bath knowing that my children do not have that same

luxury. It has just been hard this week.

 

We have passed our last 30 day non appeal period and so that is an obvious blessing

However, we are stuck right now because we do not have the funds to move forward

I am attempting with all that is in me to trust that God will provide..its just SO hard!

Plain and simple...Its hard to trust when you have NO clue where in the world it will come

from. Whew, this blind faith thing is NOT EASY!!!

 

The Lord has provided amazing friends old and new along the way to encourage me this

week! I have seen how He has knitted our hearts together and I just stand amazed.

 

If there was ONE thing right now that I would ask you to pray for it would be

this...

 

We are having a silent auction/benefit dinner this Saturday, Nov 3 at our church.

I would ask that you PRAY that we would raise enough money to move yet another

step closer to the babies! We are SO close...SO CLOSE!!

Please pray that people would truly understand the need

 

This blog is crazy because its so late and Im super tired after spending a weekend with

high school girls from our church. :)

 

Here are two of the latest pictures of our sweet babies

 

Chloe in her super cute jammies

 

and this is the latest picture of Eli.

He just looks so little

 



 

I would like to thank each of you for praying for our family.

We would not be able to get through this without them

 

THANK YOU

Doubting Thomas

 Cameron and the kids were all sleeping and had been for some time.

I continually tried closing my eyes and just could not fall asleep. 1am, 2am...the worry just continued

to grow in me. The thoughts of what I could do swarmed through my head. The conclusion...well, I clearly fell asleep before the conclusion

However, this morning I woke up with the same intense feeling. The room was still dark and as I was laying there , again my head was so quickly flooded with thoughts, questions and evrything in between.

 

The FEAR of knowing that money is due and we don't have it.

The SORROW that our children are back in their orphanage and Im not sure when we will get to them

The ANGER at myself for not planning better and being more prepared

The GUILT for not trying harder

 

I simply gave in to the reality that this is too big for me.

The financial need is too great and the timing is growing shorter

I could not help but laying there in that dark room feeling like I had

FAILED my children.

I have never felt like that throughout this whole process, when its been hard

when it just felt like it wasn't going to happen. I just continued seeing hope and promise

This morning was SO different.

I allowed my fear to cloud my faith!

 

The conclusion swept over me.

Of course in song ( thats how I roll)

My heart was flooded with these lyrics

"Oh Praise The Lord our Mighty Warrior, Praise the Lord the Glorious One

By His hand we stand in VICTORY by His name we've overcome"

 

For this doubting Thomas, that is what I needed to hear. I needed to be reminded

that this is NOT my battle. THe victory is HIS. He is fighting for these

children, HIS children! He has BEEN fighting for them!

How foolish to think He would stop now.

 

I am still 100% clueless as to how we will get the funding needed to bring them home.

I am, however, 100% certain that in His time we will

I know that He has called us to trust and walk by faith.

I know that to most it seems impossible.

 

That is why this is not about the possible. Its about making His name known through the impossible!

That is where we see His mighty hand! He has already moved mountains for Chloe and Eli and we trust He is faithful.

 

The need right now.

$5707

that is what our family needs in order to submit our case to Embassy, gain visas and passports for the children.

We are stopped at this point and our lawyer is not moving forward on processing this until he has the money in hand. We fully understand this and were not expecting to reach this point so quickly. After we are submitted to Embassy we receive a TRAVEL DATE to bring our babies home! Thats how close we are...

 

Please join us in BOLDLY praying that God would call people to join this journey with us financially to bring Chloe and Eli HOME. Thank you all in advance for your prayers and support of our family.