Super Seven Under one ROOF

 

 

 

 

Bryson was the first one through the big blue door

His eyes were large, scanning the crowd looking for

me and Alyssa.
Next was Caleb, dazed with the same calm yet desperate look

on his face.

Those little boys were looking for their mommy and when

they finally saw me their faces lit up

I could see in their eyes the relief of finally being together

My sweet hearted Bryson, who always tries to keep his emotions bottled

was fighting back tears

Caleb just ran into my arms and held on with every ounce of energy he had

 

Finally my sweet husband walked out

I think of all the times I've seen him this may

have been one of my favorites.

I saw how proud of me he was and in his eyes

a look that reminded me how deeply I am loved

by him, yes

but also by my Heavenly Father who has given me this

amazing group of people to enjoy this life with

 

The next moments were filled with the most wonderful

group hug that I think we've had in a while

My heart wanted to jump out of my chest

 

This was more than a family being reunited

This was one more piece to our little puzzle

 

You see, for us, this journey is about far more than

bringing Luke and Levi home

Those two boys are the reason we are sitting in Zambia

but they are not the only "things" we will walk away

from Zambia with

 

The Lord is at work in our heart and lives

in ways that we have needed so desperately

 

 

May He continue

REDEEMING

RESTORING and HEALING

all those places in our hearts that would keep

us from being fully surrendered to Him

 

 

 

GOOD NIGHT everyone!!

My entire crew is dead asleep and I might as well

join them... I have a feeling Im going to be pretty

busy from here on out :)

 

 

Prayer Request for this week is that we would gain paperwork

and a court date

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



 

 

As I climb into bed tonight my head and heart are swirling
I only have SIX more sleeps to go before three of my favorite
boys are here. Yet, with that excitement also comes the reminder
that I am not home. Tonight, I am longing for home

My heart was laid heavy with the reality that not only
have I been here for five days but I very likely
{UNLESS A MIRACLE HAPPENS}
will be here for another 120 or so days or so
That is a lot to let sink in
This place is unfamiliar in every way

My heart is to be home

Yet there is still so much that is required

 

Zambia requires three months of fostering before you are able to

gain final approval.
They have recently added in a two week

"bonding" phase prior to the three month foster phase.

That is why Im here, starting that two week phase so that when

Derek arrives, we can hopefully have a court date to be given

foster parent rights.

We currently sit waiting on our paperwork to be found in the

capital. We checked today..and will check again tomorrow
So that is the latest on the actual process itself
Pray the paperwork can be back dated to the first day I was
here with the children instead of when they find our paperwork

 

It is hard to press in tonight and hear clearly what next steps are

Its difficult to discern His voice from my own

desires, hopes and fears.

 

I don't want to move a single step without Him

I truly desire for this entire process to go just as the Lord desires

He has a plan and that very well may include me being here with

these five kiddos of mine for 4 months

I want that if He does...with tears streaming down my face

I do truly desire His work to be complete in this situation

whatever that looks like.

 

I want to hear His voice ahead calling me step by step

to Himself and His plan

 

El Roi, You are the God who SEES. You see me here and you

know the weight feels too much today. Be near to me Lord

Please do not let me move without you out of selfish ambition

Lead me to Your heart when I am overwhelmed

Hold us in the palm of your hand...God I feel alone tonight.

I don't feel strong Father. Yet I know that you are made

PERFECT in my weakness. You give me new strength daily

You restore my soul

 

"You were the VICTOR in the King

You were the POWER in David's swing

You were the CALM in Abraham

You are the GOD who understands

You are the STRENGTH when we have none

You are the LIVING HOLY ONE

You were

You are

and

you will ALWAYS be"

 

My may weary soul rest in who You are

Lord I trust you heart is good and kind

Help me to trust that you are mighty beyond comprehension

Help me to trust that you would reach down into this life

of mine and use me for Your kingdom

and Lord...Father, if at all possible...can we all please go home SOON